My definition of productivity is finding more books to add to my TBR and then painstakingly carving out space on my schedule to read them while trying not to dwell on the fact that I’m a college student with little time, and even less money.

Hello, friends! I’m posting this after midnight on March 1st which is MY BIRTHDAY! I’m officially 20 years old and that sounds…..fake and horrifying. I can’t believe 14 years old me thought people in their 20s were adults when in reality, being an adult is just being dragged into the most depressing sort of party where everyone is just fumbling around, bumping into each other, and asking where the free food is.

I hate being so clumsy with words when words mean so much but I’m genuinely grateful for this community. Thank you, everyone, for the kind words, the support, the birthday wishes, the unexpected book gifts. I can’t fully articulate how much these acts of kindness mean to me and how they alleviate the sting of spending yet another birthday alone, in a city where I don’t have any close friends to celebrate with, in a country that’s an ocean away from home. I appreciate you guys more than you know.

Anyway, I should probably stop here before the situation becomes more maudlin than anyone could abide. *covers up feelings with aggressive sarcasm* So, without further ado, here’s my March TBR! Continue reading “BOOKS I WANT TO READ IN MARCH…AND OTHER STUFF”

On the Come Up by Angie Thomas


Sixteen-year-old Bri wants to be one of the greatest rappers of all time. Or at least make it out of her neighborhood one day. As the daughter of an underground rap legend who died before he hit big, Bri’s got big shoes to fill. But now that her mom has unexpectedly lost her job, food banks and shutoff notices are as much a part of Bri’s life as beats and rhymes. With bills piling up and homelessness staring her family down, Bri no longer just wants to make it—she has to make it.

On the Come Up is Angie Thomas’s homage to hip-hop, the art that sparked her passion for storytelling and continues to inspire her to this day. It is the story of fighting for your dreams, even as the odds are stacked against you; of the struggle to become who you are and not who everyone expects you to be; and of the desperate realities of poor and working-class black families.

RATING: 🌟🌟🌟🌟🌟

It’s Angie Thomas’ world and she’s just allowing us to live in it. Continue reading “On the Come Up by Angie Thomas”

King of Scars (Nikolai Duology #1) by Leigh Bardugo



Nikolai Lantsov has always had a gift for the impossible. No one knows what he endured in his country’s bloody civil war—and he intends to keep it that way. Now, as enemies gather at his weakened borders, the young king must find a way to refill Ravka’s coffers, forge new alliances, and stop a rising threat to the once-great Grisha Army.

Yet with every day a dark magic within him grows stronger, threatening to destroy all he has built. With the help of a young monk and a legendary Grisha Squaller, Nikolai will journey to the places in Ravka where the deepest magic survives to vanquish the terrible legacy inside him. He will risk everything to save his country and himself. But some secrets aren’t meant to stay buried—and some wounds aren’t meant to heal.

RATING: 🌟🌟🌟🌟🌟

[softly, from under a pile of blankets] what the fuck was that ending?

I finished this book and the moment wavered in timorous silence, searing, null, and numb. It was as though the world was suspended for an intermission, waiting until the curtain is lifted and the next act can begin. Disbelief came first, then surprise. Then the full scope of the ending struck me with a pang of deep resentment, that this extraordinary, inexplicable thing should happen.

Look, I just want it documented somewhere that the fact we’re not conferred immediate access to the sequel upon finishing this book is borderline criminal. Continue reading “King of Scars (Nikolai Duology #1) by Leigh Bardugo”

Jade City (The Green Bone Saga #1)


Magical jade—mined, traded, stolen, and killed for—is the lifeblood of the island of Kekon. For centuries, honorable Green Bone warriors like the Kaul family have used it to enhance their abilities and defend the island from foreign invasion.

Now the war is over and a new generation of Kauls vies for control of Kekon’s bustling capital city. They care about nothing but protecting their own, cornering the jade market, and defending the districts under their protection. Ancient tradition has little place in this rapidly changing nation.

When a powerful new drug emerges that lets anyone—even foreigners—wield jade, the simmering tension between the Kauls and the rival Ayt family erupts into open violence. The outcome of this clan war will determine the fate of all Green Bones—from their grandest patriarch to the lowliest motorcycle runner on the streets—and of Kekon itself.

Jade City begins an epic tale of family, honor, and those who live and die by the ancient laws of jade and blood.

RATING: 🌟🌟🌟🌟🌟

Physically, my body is here and now, but mentally, I’m in the astral plane beating myself up in an empty parking lot for not reading this book sooner.

With that being said, my condolences to anyone who will pick up this book because the experience of reading it is the equivalent of getting a piercing….through the heart….with a wooden stake. Continue reading “Jade City (The Green Bone Saga #1)”

Top 10 Things That Make Me Pick Up a Book

What makes me pick up a book?

The short version of the answer is: reading is what saves me from the otherwise cataclysmic experience of being a human being, and it’s also a perfect way to distort reality into some sort of meaningful event despite the holographic realm which we occupy rendering all of our choices meaningless.

This is the longer version: Continue reading “Top 10 Things That Make Me Pick Up a Book”

Books I WANT to read, but don’t want to READ

For someone who claims to love books, I sure do spend a heck of lot of time not reading them. Today’s post is going to be about books that I want to read but the process of actually picking them up is a parallel to some disgruntled, jaded old man reading the newspaper in the morning, or like, some hapless chap taking doomed steps up a few rickety wooden stairs to a guillotine.

Okay, that escalated way too quickly. But, point is: life is so hard when you have +200 books on your TBR list and very little time or motivation to pick them up.

This amazing tag was created by my friend, Jamieson, at Jamishelves. Thank you so much for tagging me! THIS WAS FUN!

Alright, now, let’s get into the list! Continue reading “Books I WANT to read, but don’t want to READ”

Review: The Weight of Our Sky by Hanna Alkaf

35614314A music-loving teen with OCD does everything she can to find her way back to her mother during the historic race riots in 1969 Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia, in this heart-pounding literary debut.

Melati Ahmad looks like your typical moviegoing, Beatles-obsessed sixteen-year-old. Unlike most other sixteen-year-olds though, Mel also believes that she harbors a djinn inside her, one who threatens her with horrific images of her mother’s death unless she adheres to an elaborate ritual of counting and tapping to keep him satisfied.

But there are things that Melati can’t protect her mother from. On the evening of May 13th, 1969, racial tensions in her home city of Kuala Lumpur boil over. The Chinese and Malays are at war, and Mel and her mother become separated by a city in flames.

With a 24-hour curfew in place and all lines of communication down, it will take the help of a Chinese boy named Vincent and all of the courage and grit in Melati’s arsenal to overcome the violence on the streets, her own prejudices, and her djinn’s surging power to make it back to the one person she can’t risk losing.

Content warnings: Racism, graphic violence, on-page death, OCD and anxiety triggers.

RATING: 🌟🌟🌟🌟

The Weight of Our Sky is a labor of pain, but it’s also a labor of tremendous love. Continue reading “Review: The Weight of Our Sky by Hanna Alkaf”